Seasonal Blues

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I’m feeling sad this week. My mood, I know, was triggered by the death of a neighbor here in Florida, a sweet woman I barely knew but liked. At her memorial service Monday afternoon, I started thinking of all the people I’ve met over the years, people I barely knew who are now gone. People I still miss. Some were old and their passing wasn’t a big surprise, but many were way too young to die. I can think of four who passed on in 2014: Lyla Fox, Virgina DeWeese, Patti Shenberger, and Joann Cotant.

 I don’t know why some people make a lasting impression in just a short time. Usually I run into people I know I should remember but don’t. There are a few, however, that have remained in my memory for decades. I can close my eyes and go back in time. It’s like watching a film clip or part of a home movie. The memory is more ethereal than photo perfect and might come back as the remembrance of a hug, the sound of their laughter, or simply the pleasure of being around them. I don’t know if it’s a shared connection; that is, if these people were alive today and I was gone, if they would think of me in the same way. I hope so, because the friendship seemed real at the moment.

 Besides the passing of my neighbor, and seeing her husband’s grief, I think this time of the year makes many of us remember friends and family we’ve lost. I know I find myself recalling Thanksgiving gatherings and Christmas holidays from my past. Most precious are the years when the holidays were still a time of magic, back when I, my family and my friends were young. Or when my children were young.

 Alas, those days are past, but rather than weeping over those memories, I want to thank those people, even those I only knew for a short time, for being a part of my life. To quote Bob Hope, “Thanks for the memories.”

 

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14 Responses to Seasonal Blues

  1. So sorry to hear about your neighbor. I’ve met people briefly like that who just seem to stick with me. Sending healing wishes to her spouse today.

  2. Lucy Kubash says:

    Losing both Patti and Virginia this past year was sad. And I’m sorry for the loss of your neighbor. I guess something about the year drawing to a close makes us think about what’s happened in the last twelve months, and we can’t help but miss those lost. When the blues get the best of me, I try to do something that I know will make me happy or at least lift my mood, even if it’s just watching a favorite tv show. Maybe you need to look for the puppy that needs a new home? I can just see a little poodle with a big red bow around her neck in your future. 🙂

  3. Elorise Holstad says:

    Maris ~~ I’ve been thinking along those same lines myself, and believe that you’re right: Something about this time of year makes you recall people who are no longer with us. These are bittersweet memories.
    PS/I second Lucy Kubash’s motion for a new dog in your life. Easy for me to say … you’re the one who’d have to take care of him or her. Grin.

  4. Alice Duncan says:

    Oh, boy, I totally sympathize. I’ve lost far too many loved ones this year. I don’t like it. The universe doesn’t seem to care. The one that hit me hardest was a friend in New Jersey. He and his dear wife fought his cancer for four hideous months, he was pronounced cancer-free on Friday, and he died Saturday night. Shocking and horrible.

  5. Diane Burton says:

    For many of us, the holidays are about getting together with family and friends. So it’s natural we think about those who are missing. I understand your reluctance to get a puppy. I feel the same way.

    • Maris SouleMaris Soule says:

      That’s exactly the problem, Diane. The part I truly enjoy about the holidays is the opportunity to connect with long-time friends (not the commercialism). It’s always so difficult to cross a name off my Christmas card list because that person is now gone.

  6. Melissa Keir says:

    Thank you for putting into words how hard this season is for me. With the loss of my mom right before Christmas, the season hasn’t been the same. Thanksgiving is fine.. New Years is fine… just this month of December can’t seem to let me go!

    • Maris SouleMaris Soule says:

      Melissa, my sympathies go out to you. Loosing a mother is difficult, no matter what the season, but to lose her at this time of the year makes it all the worse.

  7. Enid says:

    Part of it is the LONG DARK darkness of December. Sunshine will return, but is seems far off. Memories are warming and chilling at the same time. Today we are being frightened by the rain storm, and I am remembering storms in Dville when we were flooded out of the house one Christmas, and when we lost the house one January. Then there is our Dec 23 wedding anniversary, a bit hard to handle now. However, life is GOOD, friends are priceless, and I am thankful every day.